Too hard on myself

10/19/10

I woke up today and realized that I'm being way too hard on myself. I'm totally bummed out that I haven't written my lit review for my inquiry project yet. I've been beating myself up about it, but I had a moment of clarity this morning that I need to cut myself a break. The two prior weekends, I was sick - first with a head cold, then with a stomach flu. Because of my long commute, the only time that I have to work on this paper is over the weekend - well, I can't work when I'm that sick. There's only so much that one person can do. I know that I need to keep up with the paper, but really, I still have time to get it all together.

We had QC today, and I have to be honest that I feel that the QC is a waste of time. We've got so much else to do - having to read the articles, then write a reflection paper is just the straw that breaks your back. Having said that, I really did enjoy the article. It helped me to think about Social Justice, and what that looks like in a classroom. Students standing up to bullies - that's social justice in elementary school. The article also helped me to think about where I would like to teach - I've been thinking about urban teaching, but wondering if I can even relate to those students. It was inspiring to think that, yes - I can. If I do end up working in an urban area, I hope that I can serve these students to the best of my ability.

Lynne and I met up for coffee (I got a milk shake) at the Chocolate Bar today. It hurt to pay $5 cash for a milkshake when just a few months ago, I got it for free! We talked about the challenges of the semester and reviewed how far we have come. It was a nice conversation!

Inquiry was a phenomenal release tonight! We talked about the challenges that we're all facing, and commiserated with each other. I stated that I felt like I was drowning - Audrey's response: "Good! No, that's good! I'm there with you - I'm drowning too! I think if you don't feel that way, that you're not caring - you're not doing what you should be doing." Audrey. How are you so amazing? Lynne and I shared with her after class that every class is just a moment of clarity - and that what we really need to do is follow her around all day so that we can stay on task. It will all be okay. One by one it will all get done!